Terrify me

The one thing we all got in common

I'm afraid, your afraid.

That thing that makes your body Numb

Yet sets every nerve is on fire

         hairs are standing up on end

Breathing shallow, shaking with each intake of new air.

Heart is fluttering about trying to escape its bony cage.

Goosebumps creep everywhere, chill edging into you soul.

You can try to deny it. Or hide it.

But it will just sit there like a dead weight on you.

Me? Yeah, I'm afraid.

I'm afraid of ignored. 

Who's that person? Forever and always.

I have a NAME!

Saying the wrong thing.

People remember that more than your brilliant and witty remarks

Is it just me? Am I paranoid?

I'm afraid of dreams.

Your Falling

                        falling

                                 falling...

                                          You try and wake up before you hit the ground. But you just hit it

anyways. 

I'm afraid that one day I'll wake up and be five again, and this life was a lie and a fake. 

(It was all just a dream.)

I'm Afraid someone is always Watching (Looking) Seeing (Examining) me.

I'm not some interesting play thing!

   

I'm afraid of being wrong 

that angel wings I thought I had

Were really demonic ones instead.

I'm afraid of losing my parents, of losing

My family.

I'm afraid I won't care if I did lose them.

I'm afraid I'm the monster I've been afraid of.

I'm afraid that my heart that beats is frozen solid 

That maybe it never was beating in the first place.

That everything I feel is something made up by others

And that I'm imagining it cause I have no heart. 

I'm afraid of being not good enough

To others 

But mostly Not good enough for my self.

I'm afraid that I'm not going to see the light

And be alone in the suffocating darkness

Forever...

We're all afraid of each other, ourselves

Things, ideas

But at least we all can comfort each other 

Because we all have something in common...